“My Life in Christ” by St. John of Kronstadt

  • It seems cer­tain that I’m going to start quot­ing this one as I did with “Diary of a Russ­ian Priest” so I might as well give a bit of intro­duc­tion and infor­ma­tion to any­one who isn’t already famil­iar with this Ortho­dox gem.

    “My Life in Christ” is a vol­ume full of snip­pets from a short para­graph to 2/3 of a page in length. They aren’t cat­e­go­rized or ordered in any way. Each one is the reflec­tion writ­ten by Fr. John of Kro­n­stadt a mar­ried parish priest who lived in a small vil­lage in north­ern Rus­sia from 1829 – 1908, and was con­se­crated a saint in 1988. I won’t go into his lifestory — which is wor­thy of an arti­cle (or maybe a blog) all its own — but here is a short excerpt from this hagiog­ra­phy that gives an indi­ca­tion of why St. John is so revered:

    The Wonder-Working Father John Sergiev is another of the great elders and saints who were a part of the spir­i­tual revival started by St. Pai­sius Velichkovsky. Widely ven­er­ated as a saint even dur­ing his life­time, and the only mar­ried parish priest in the Russ­ian cal­en­dar of saints, Father John is known for his spir­i­tual gifts of pow­er­ful prayer, heal­ing, spir­i­tual insight and great love for all peo­ple. He also reawak­ened the Russ­ian Ortho­dox Church to the Apos­tolic tra­di­tion of receiv­ing Holy Com­mu­nion at every Divine Liturgy. This is why he is most com­monly por­trayed hold­ing a Com­mu­nion chalice.

    On the title page of “My Life in Christ”, St. John writes:

    I do not pre­cede my book by any intro­duc­tion: let it speak for itself. Every­thing con­tained in it is but a gra­cious enlighte­ment which was bestowed upon my soul by the all-enlightening Holy Ghost dur­ing moments of deep self-concentration and of self-examination, espe­cially dur­ing prayer. When I had time, I noted down the edi­fy­ing thoughts and feel­ings that came to me, and from these notes, con­tin­ued for many years, this book has now been com­piled; the con­tents are very var­ied, as will be seen by the read­ers. Let them judge of them for them­selves. “He that is spir­i­tual jud­geth all things, yet he him­self is judged of no man.” (1 Corinthi­ans ii,15)

    The book is a lit­tle hard to come by in the com­plete vol­ume — I was tick­led pink when a friend thinned out his Ortho­dox library and I inher­ited this copy. But if you want to get the feel of it with­out pay­ing the $39 or so that peo­ple on Ama­zon wanted for used copies of the whole 560-page book (Link HERE), there is “Spir­i­tual Coun­sels” (Link HERE) that is a much shorter selec­tion out of “My Life” set into cat­e­gories to make it more reader-friendly. I started out with that, but found that I just wanted more when I got to the end.

    And so now it’s an addi­tion to my daily read­ings, and at the rate I’m going, I prob­a­bly won’t be done till 2015 or so. I’ll try not to keep quot­ing it ALL the time, but rest assured, I’ll want to.

    PS: I will men­tion the one aspect of “My Life” that might be a lit­tle prob­lem­atic, prob­a­bly not at the time St. John was writ­ing but because of a cer­tain down­hill slide in cur­rent Chris­tian­ity. Saint John is espe­cially emphatic about the need for a strong and active prayer life, and as part of prayer­ful­ness, he believed that it was impor­tant for Chris­tians to place total faith that God would hear their prayers. Here’s a typ­i­cal exam­ple from “My Life”

    If you wish to ask of God in prayer any bless­ing for your­self, then before pray­ing pre­pare your­self for undoubt­ing and firm faith, and take in good time means against doubt and unbe­lief. For it will go ill with you if dur­ing the prayer itself your heart wavers in its faith and does not stand firm in it. … Remem­ber that God, dur­ing your prayer, is wait­ing for your affir­ma­tive answer to the ques­tion which He is inwardly ask­ing you: ‘Believe ye that I am able to do this?’

    It is a great and a lov­ing sen­ti­ment, and com­ing as it did from a man who was dili­gent in ascetic labors it is surely good advice. The dan­ger for 21st cen­tury Amer­i­cans, IMHO, is that we are liv­ing in a time and place that already tends to cheapen prayer to a magic wish­list and turn God into ‘a celes­tial but­ler’ (as Den­nis Prager puts it). It wasn’t all that long ago that “The Jabez Prayer” was a best-seller, and TV evan­ge­lists strut the stage telling hap­less view­ers that God is just dying to give you stuff. It is a sad den­i­gra­tion of what inter­ces­sion in prayer can be, and St. John can hardly have expected that it would have come to this. But since that cul­tural mes­sage rings so strongly in my ears, I found that I had to be care­ful with St. John’s very good advice on that one issue.


    Related posts:

    1. Spir­i­tual Coun­sels by Fr. John of Kronstadt
    2. The rugged life
    3. Got a favorite Lenten book?
    4. Prayer request
    5. Why is faith so difficult?

4 Responses and Counting...

  • Nicode­mus 06.17.2007

    This is such great advice on prayer…I so often find myself plow­ing through my prayer rule. Even though I heard myself pray the prayers, my mind was wan­der­ing to “I won­der what I should make my kids for break­fast?”. I have heard peo­ple flip­pantly refer to prayer as an easy task — I think it can get eas­ier (prob­a­bly), but, like lift­ing weights or jog­ging or any other exer­cise, where you start out is always a strug­gle, but soon you are able to do your rou­tine with much more ease — that is when you need to chal­lenge your­self again and increase the weights you are lift­ing or extend the miles you are jog­ging — it is about get­ting stronger and going deeper, and of course, stay­ing hum­ble and always depen­dent on God.

    Some­times I get all hung up on sim­ply com­plet­ing my prayer rule when in fact I think God is more con­cerned that I con­nect with Him — if I do that, then I have accom­plished the goal of my prayer rule any­way, and then my rule actu­ally means something.

  • Well, if you want some read­ing that focuses on prayer, you might con­sider “Spir­i­tual Coun­sels.” It’s much lighter read­ing than what you’re used to, I think — meant to be taken in, as you see from these quotes, more in lit­tle sips than deep draughts.

    Another one that I rec­om­mend every time I can is “Begin­ning to Pray” by Mpn. Anthony Bloom. I prob­a­bly embar­rass myself with how often I go on about this book, but I think it’s that good.

    All I can do is rec­om­mend read­ings because I’m way too much of a begin­ner myself with prayer life. I may be a weak­ling, but at least I’m hon­est. :-)

  • I have that book, but I’ve not read it. Do you think it’s bet­ter a small bit at a time?

  • Yep, this is def­i­nitely little-at-a-time stuff, it seems to me. Not that it’s hard read­ing by any stretch, but each one was his daily reflec­tion. If you try to read bunches at a time, they’ll just seem like very long bumper stick­ers, I would think.

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